Tuesday, December 9, 2008
So, some things are inevitable in life. First and second. One being change.
These last few weeks have held a lot of change for me - good and not so good.
And I thought to myself..I can't do this. I just can't make it work. But the thing is, I didn't know what I wanted to do. Where I wanted to be. Who I had become.
And I had a funny thought yesterday.
No funny ha ha. Funny AHA!
I am..what I make of me.
I can either wallow in my own sadness, or I can get up and find my way.
So, I did just that.
I wandered..and I hunted..and I searched. I shopped and I took pictures and I had fun. I had fun all by myself.
Now, don't mistake me for saying I'm better off alone. I love being a part of a group and having fun. I have my friends and I love them all. And I know if I ever needed help, they'd be there for me and vice versa.
But I think just flying solo for a while was necessary. For me to remember a lot of things - about SL and myself. When I started this blog, I used the term "Not all who wander are lost" on top. The very first time I said it in SL was to BigD when I showed everyone the Blissie Cave and we wandered the entire sim going into other people's homes and stuff. That adventure always stuck with me.
I've decided what my short-term future holds. Not work, but a new adventure for me to get lost in. I'm excited. I can't remember the last time I was really really excited about something for myself in SL. I started Blissful Productions, but never really got EXCITED about it - which is why it never went anywhere.
I'm not what SL makes of me. SL is what I make of it.
And the view today is pretty damn good to me.
I guess people are right when they say there's always a rainbow after a storm..or..whatever it is people say about the good things that come out after things have been at their worst.
:) See you when I see you. Maybe here, maybe not.
Peace out, yo.
Posted by Me at 12:17 AM