Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Fresh SL Air..

In the wake of one of the most horrid weeks I've ever had in SL, has been the most refreshing time I've ever had in SL.

You see, a year ago, I was just a DJs girl. I was a shopper. I was..just a roaming soul.

And then I started working..and planning..and taking it all too serious.

After Moo and I broke up, I quit my hostessing jobs. Bistro, Savoy and Jungle. I walked away, and while there's a small twinge of regret, there's a bigger breath of fresh air. I'll miss feeling like a part of something - but I carry with me the knowledge that I still am a part of something; just not a working part anymore.

I love Busy and Ehric, and I loved working with them and for them to make the Jungle popular. But truthfully, I lost my passion for it all.

Tonight, which would be my usual night hostessing at the Jungle, I logged on about half hour into Moo's show. And for the first time, I didn't feel guilty..or like I'd let someone down.

Moo and I are kinda working things out. We're talking..and we miss each other too much to just walk away. But there's a lot of damage in the wake of our breakup, a lot that will just take time to heal. So we're taking things slow and apart, but still being friends. So, it's a good start.

I don't need to clock watch anymore. I'll always check out my friends if they're working and I'm on, but I don't HAVE to be there..I don't HAVE to be perky or pretend to care when someone I've never met wanders in. I don't HAVE to do anything but be me now.

And it's like a breath of fresh air into just be. To have no stress.

So here's my advice to you:
If you feel like SL's become..too much work..then stop working. The SL world won't collapse. Even if you just take a week off, you'll see how peaceful it feels. Take some time, grab a friend and wander. Do a hunt..visit a new sim..check out new stores..attend random parties..wheelchair race through a courtyard..just hang around and chat.

I loved the time I spent doing what I did here..but..that time passed, and there's a new time waiting fior me. I'm a little nervous (what will become of me?), but I'm even more excited (WHAT will become of me?!) to try new things.

And one last piece of advice for tonight:
Time does heal all things. I've seen it for myself. And I believe in it. Stupid little things..they don't live forever.

It's late. :) Time for bed.



Parker said...

You step back, you breathe, you exist, then you live again.

Just take care of you and we are all still here for you.

By the way, i am glad to be your neighbor. ;-)

Yordie Sands said...

You said, "If you feel like SL's become..too much work..then stop working." Yeah, what she said. SL has a way of becoming intense and intensely demaning somehow. You aren't walking away from your friendships when you change what you do, you're just doing something new. I seem to really need that, maybe you do too?

Joonie Jatho said...

Hugs Biss!

Time does heal all wounds. And it's never too late to start over.

Here's to happiness! Love you!