In the wake of one of the most horrid weeks I've ever had in SL, has been the most refreshing time I've ever had in SL.
You see, a year ago, I was just a DJs girl. I was a shopper. I was..just a roaming soul.
And then I started working..and planning..and taking it all too serious.
After Moo and I broke up, I quit my hostessing jobs. Bistro, Savoy and Jungle. I walked away, and while there's a small twinge of regret, there's a bigger breath of fresh air. I'll miss feeling like a part of something - but I carry with me the knowledge that I still am a part of something; just not a working part anymore.
I love Busy and Ehric, and I loved working with them and for them to make the Jungle popular. But truthfully, I lost my passion for it all.
Tonight, which would be my usual night hostessing at the Jungle, I logged on about half hour into Moo's show. And for the first time, I didn't feel guilty..or like I'd let someone down.
Moo and I are kinda working things out. We're talking..and we miss each other too much to just walk away. But there's a lot of damage in the wake of our breakup, a lot that will just take time to heal. So we're taking things slow and easy..living apart, but still being friends. So, it's a good start.
I don't need to clock watch anymore. I'll always check out my friends if they're working and I'm on, but I don't HAVE to be there..I don't HAVE to be perky or pretend to care when someone I've never met wanders in. I don't HAVE to do anything but be me now.
And it's like a breath of fresh air into SL..to just be. To have no obligations..no duties..no stress.
So here's my advice to you:
If you feel like SL's become..too much work..then stop working. The SL world won't collapse. Even if you just take a week off, you'll see how peaceful it feels. Take some time, grab a friend and wander. Do a hunt..visit a new sim..check out new stores..attend random parties..wheelchair race through a courtyard..just hang around and chat.
I loved the time I spent doing what I did here..but..that time passed, and there's a new time waiting fior me. I'm a little nervous (what will become of me?), but I'm even more excited (WHAT will become of me?!) to try new things.
And one last piece of advice for tonight:
Time does heal all things. I've seen it for myself. And I believe in it. Stupid little things..they don't live forever.
It's late. :) Time for bed.