Someone recently pointed out to me that SL is very much a cycle. The periods of good and happy and fun. And then the periods of crazy and unhappy and out of hand. And I think..it's very true.
And, I said that it was the ebb and flow of SL that made it so much like RL sometimes. The periods of quiet content and then ear shattering discontent. They always surface.
When it rains, it pours, yada yada.
But let me tell you something funny.
I was sitting in my apartment chatting with Parker and trying to decorate (re-decorate?) for Christmas when the region decided to restart and logged us all off.
So, I logged back in, and a very funny thing happened. I landed in Noob Land, Korea..on Bev.
And I thought to myself, if I'd never met Bev all those months ago..would we be friends now? Would today be the day that we met for the first time - when I landed on her? Would our friendship start today?
And I realized this (follow me if you dare):
There is a cyclic flow to life. Real and virtual. There are good times, and there are the not good times. But to say that I would trade one moment of good times for five moments of bad times would be a lie. I'd avoid the bad times if I could, but they make the good times that much better. And during the bad times, when you think things are at their worst, I sometimes think to myself, if not for this super bad moment, would I appreciate the good ones? Or would they just be moments to me?
So. Understand this..
You can see me any way that you want. As a good person, a bad person, as a clueless person..whatever. But. I would never trade a single moment for anything. I will never trade the bad moments away, because they make the good moments feel all that much better. I will never treat any moment as one I'd never live again - even my mistakes. Every mistake is a beautiful mistake. One to learn from and one to grow from. I am as much a product of my successses as I am of my failures.
And I believe that fate owns us in some ways. That fate brings some people into our lives and takes some people out of our lives. And we are better and richer and stronger because of it. And I don't doubt that for a second. Everyone touches us - whether they know it or not. Whether we register to them or not.
Tonight I would have met Bev for the first time, maybe. She'd come into my life later than had I met her months ago, but she WOULD have come into my life today.
I miss life the way it was a year ago. I do. My RL and my SL. Things were quiet and happy and I was able to live in La Dee Da Land - where the people without worries live. But the economy, the world, the everything has changed. And these days it's all sink or swim - everywhere. So I'm going to figure out where I can get a raft or something, because it's hard to swim with a 10 pound weight tied to your neck, yo. But. I know it'll be okay. My heart tells me so.
And soon, things will be better. I'm sure of it.
And I need to stop blogging so late at night. I think it makes me ramble. ROFL. *yawn* Night!