Well, this week has been a crazy one.
Sunday I logged off of SL violently ill. So I haven't eaten much since Saturday - needless to say I am now 6 pounds lighter.
I crawled into work on Tuesday to find that one of the companies I do business with, had just placed an exclusive deal with a competitor of mine - a deal that was a) illegal according to New York State Law and b) completely a slap in the face to a recent agreement worked out with me.
So, my blood pressure hit the ROOF.
This deal - while it was crap - could cost me several of my medium sized accounts or hundreds of thousands of dollars if I did retain the clients.
So I've had..issues driving me nuts for the last few weeks.
And finally, this week, I think I just lost my temper with everyone on everything.
I beyond exploded at the company representative who smugly told me that there was nothing wrong with this deal..and that he had every right to do it.
By nature, I don't pick fights. I walk away. I..walk away and I think it through. But walking out on a lovers fight and walking out on a meeting..two different things.
So, before I walked out of the meeting - the first time in my professional career that I have ever WALKED out on fucking bullshit meeting - I told him that I am not about to start a pissing contest. And he smiled. Because..he thought I was giving up. So I leaned in very close..and said, in the softest voice I could muster..that if it was a war with me that he wanted, so be it. I wouldn't just pull SOME business. I'd pull it all. Go ahead and test me. I'm all bite, no bark.
And that was it.
I walked out. I left a room of people sitting there..completely mortified.
And today as I sat at my desk thinking of how I could apologize..and undo this complete act of insanity..I got a call to tell me, the agreement with my competitor had been pulled. Just. Like. That. I was told..war with me was never the intention, and that this was never thought all the way through. And..
I put my feet up on my desk today and I laughed because..for the first time in a long time, I WON.
My thoughts are all choppy..because it's late..and I still don't feel well.
But you know. :)
Just like IMing me, I guess.