So, in this life we're faced with something..gray. Temptation.
You see, damned if you do and damned if you don't. Give in and lose everything. Don't give in and you waste away in discontent regret.
Now, there's no limit to temptation..and no area in life where it doesn't appear. What we want most..what we have and what we need all clash..and we are STUCK.
So being in the position of wanting things you can or can't have is hard. If you can have them, there's always a reason you don't. And if you can't have them, there are always 500 reasons you should (rational or not).
So when do you stop restraining yourself?
Let's say..you have a toaster.
And your toaster is okay.
But your friend has a really great toaster.
You don't go take her toaster because..clearly it's her toaster.
But you want it.
And every day you want it a little more than the last.
The thing is...you can't bring yourself to throw your toaster away.
So..you want this other toaster..
And your toaster too.
You're a two toaster tramp.
But you see.....you smack your toaster..and start to hate it..and don't use it....because it can't toast like the other toaster.
What do you do?
Do you sit forever with a broken toaster (that's really not broken..just not the toaster you want..)? Do you get rid of yours? Do you break in during the night and steal your friends toaster when she's not awake? Do you keep two toasters and never tell a soul?
Because you know that your friend's toaster would be happier toasting your bread..but not necessarily that you'd be happier having it toast for you 100% of the time.
But every day..your need for this toaster grows..and grows..until it's all that you can think about.
Who knew toasters were such tools of temptation?
The gray area where your heart, head and everything in between clash. Where emotions normally contained..break out and run wild..wreaking chaos..
:) I'd love to hear your thoughts..on my madness..