Thursday, August 16, 2012

I Wish......

I kind of wish that I could freeze time. Pick a moment and leave my world that way.

My dad had a second surgery for his prostate cancer back in June. All seemed to go well.

Last week he started having back pain and really bad stomach pain. So we took him to the emergency room.

Sadly, the doctors told us that they've discovered lesions on his liver. They believe the prostate cancer has spread to his liver.

I can't quite convey how broken my heart is. I wish I could take away his pain. I wish I could make him better and let him live his life in peace.

I'd gladly take his pain and suffering if it meant he didn't have to have it.

We're meeting with the oncologist on Friday, and hopefully we can find a way to ease his pain and make things easier on him. In three years I have learned all there is to know about the heart, the brain and the prostate. I can read blood test reports with the best of them now.

I'm tired. And I wish I could slip into Second Life and hide from my first life. But that's not an option now.

Hope all is well with you all. Sending lots of love and light your way.


XOXO,
B

4 comments:

mikki freschi said...

hugs you tight, prays hard for peace for you all
mikki freschi

Marls said...

Sending you Love, sweetie. Positive thoughts for you and your family.

Paisley Mizin said...

I'm so sorry your going through this bad time. I went through a similar thing with my dad. Be strong and take each day one at a time. Be glad your dad is still here so you can continue to tell him how important he is to you. ~paisley

Sian Pearl said...

So sorry to read this. I don't have much to add, only to echo the good will. I send you love and wish you and your family, and especially your dad, strength and peace.