Oh Good Lord..

Well, this week has been a crazy one.

Sunday I logged off of SL violently ill. So I haven't eaten much since Saturday - needless to say I am now 6 pounds lighter.

I crawled into work on Tuesday to find that one of the companies I do business with, had just placed an exclusive deal with a competitor of mine - a deal that was a) illegal according to New York State Law and b) completely a slap in the face to a recent agreement worked out with me.

So, my blood pressure hit the ROOF.

This deal - while it was crap - could cost me several of my medium sized accounts or hundreds of thousands of dollars if I did retain the clients.

So I've had..issues driving me nuts for the last few weeks.

And finally, this week, I think I just lost my temper with everyone on everything.

I beyond exploded at the company representative who smugly told me that there was nothing wrong with this deal..and that he had every right to do it.

By nature, I don't pick fights. I walk away. I..walk away and I think it through. But walking out on a lovers fight and walking out on a meeting..two different things.

So, before I walked out of the meeting - the first time in my professional career that I have ever WALKED out on fucking bullshit meeting - I told him that I am not about to start a pissing contest. And he smiled. Because..he thought I was giving up. So I leaned in very close..and said, in the softest voice I could muster..that if it was a war with me that he wanted, so be it. I wouldn't just pull SOME business. I'd pull it all. Go ahead and test me. I'm all bite, no bark.

And that was it.

I walked out. I left a room of people sitting there..completely mortified.

And today as I sat at my desk thinking of how I could apologize..and undo this complete act of insanity..I got a call to tell me, the agreement with my competitor had been pulled. Just. Like. That. I was told..war with me was never the intention, and that this was never thought all the way through. And..

I won.

HAHAHHA!

I put my feet up on my desk today and I laughed because..for the first time in a long time, I WON.

My thoughts are all choppy..because it's late..and I still don't feel well.

But you know. :)

Just like IMing me, I guess.


B

A Jumbled..Bumbled..Brain!

A nice..reminder:


http://www.baby-faith.com/?s=drippy

I love this picture. It says "Life is What You Make it...All You Need Is a Little Faith.."

The website's cute. I found it googling BUBBLES!

So, this weekend has, like many others, passed by in a blur!

My sleep's back to eratic. As usual, it'll pass on its own.

Yesterday I went to Citi Field for the first time - it was chilly..but the new stadium is beautiful. Sadly, it's not Shea, though. It feels so..cold. Nothing like Shea; the memories are missing - I think that's what really bothers me about it.

I hopped on in time to make Mikki's fashion show - which was a blast. I didn't fall off of the stage, but I came darn close.

After running in several circles, I ran out of the house to attend a surprise party for my uncle's 50th birthday. Started out HORRIBLE, but once the DJ took over, it was worth the wait. Since I was the designated driver, I crammed everyone into my car and returned them all home safe and sound. Whew. (True Quote!)

Cousin: Slow it down - I can't die tonight.
Me: So you have acceptable times of day to die?
Cousin: I have a thong on with Minnie Mouse on it. Paramedics will have a field day with me.
Me: I have a hole in my tights. Right on the butt.
Cousin: I can see the headlines now. "Beautiful Girls in Bizarre Undergarments die in Speeding BMW Crash."
Boyfriend: So the four others in the car..won't get mentioned?
Me: "Beautiful Girls in Bizarre Undergarments and Others Die in Speeding BMW Crash".
Boyfriend: Oh that's just great.
Cousin: We could skip the headlines and you could JUST slow down.
Me: This is slow.

It was fun - nice night out, though. I always have fun when a certain group of us hang out.

Another night of tossing and turning..

Then this morning we spread a blanket on the roof and had a quiet picnic breakfast with the sun rising beyond the park. I love it..the sky turns this beautiful purple-ish shade..and then pink..then orange..and then viola! The sun is there. It just warms your skin..your soul..your everything. Something about the Spring makes you feel pretty damn good, I think. The winter drags me down, I think. New York looks cold and gray in the winter.

Anyway! Then I ran back downstairs and grabbed bubbles.

You know..little kid bubbles? The messy, soapy..great little bottle of joy?

Yeah. I bought six for my nephew - don't ask.

So I grabbed two..and we sat on the roof blowing bubbles for the longest time. Seems funny, doesn't it ? That the simple act of blowing bubbles..like a little kid..would make you feel so good.

But it did. And it's one of those things..that kind of reminds you of where your head should be in life.

The secret of a good life..is hidden in a bubble?



We wandered over to the park for a short walk..the weather was AMAZING today.

Good weather..it always puts me in a great mood.

So this afternoon, Moo and I had coffee. :) I shut the door on all IMs..and decided to let everyone have a Blissie free afternoon. So it was just us, just hanging out quietly. No clubs, no DJs, no nada. My favorite way to spend my time with Moo.



I suggest everyone take some time away and just relax too.

Does a heart good. :)



XOXO,
B

Taking Over NYC......

So..last night Bev and I took over the NYC sim.

So, I called her on my cell, told her I was going to meet for a field trip to Central Park.

I hopped on the train and rode up to her place.




But when we got uptown, it was so dusty! So we took out our brooms and tried to clean up. A cleaner New York is everyone's responsibility, you know.




We swept blocks and blocks, trying to clean up the mess the tourists made..




It was so much, we had to split up a few times to make things go faster.




After we were done, we went up to this great sushi restaurant - but it was deserted! I guess the chef called in sick. So I decided to slice and dice some stuff for Bev..




So we ate, and then headed out for a stroll. On the way, we met these two guys. They were really nice, and we both knew they were celebrities..but we couldn't remember who they were! So we smiled politely while they danced for us..




We were lucky enough to stumble upon St. Patrick's Cathedral..which was beautiful as always. We put in a good word for each other with the Big Guy..




Then we were HUNGRY again! So we hopped up on the snack stand and grabbed some grub. The poor teenage vendor was so floored by our beauty, he passed out behind the counter.




Then I piggybacked Bev through the park. It's a good workout for your abs and stuff..but it's hell on your knees! OMG! :) Love ya, Bev.




Mr. Moo made a brief cameo, showed us his longjohns and then poofed to bed. So Bev and I laid out on the raft in Central Park and relaxed for a while.




All in all, we had a great day in Manhattan. And I only had to tell Bev not to shout hello to strangers once. It IS New York, after all.

:) Of course we shopped to wrap our day up. I don't know if we left anything in the cute boutique..but hey - what are GNO's for?

Hope you had a good day too!


XOXO,
B

Pulling the Brim Down..

So I do learn lessons..and I do take advice.

Late.

But it happens.

When I first met Borday, he offered up some advice to me..which, at the time, I didn't take. He said "Bliss..you can't fix everything. Just let it go."

And a thousand shitstorms later, I'm learning. I'm trying not to intervene..or 'help'.

But here's the thing.

I've lowered the brim on my SL baseball cap and I'm just hanging around now. What you do..what you sow and what you reap..that's totally your business. Just don't cry about it to me.

Some wise old guy told me something..about cleaning up my side of the street. "If I have a problem with someone, I need to clean up my side of the street....that's the only thing I'm responsible for." I trust his advice. And in my own way, I've been taking it.

So I'll be here..with my eyes shielded from everything..trying not to stare at the carnage to come as I sweep and stuff.

Thanks for the advice. This time I'll actually take it.





XOXO,
B

Whew..

Man..

Yesterday was a long day..

I was in a bad place too, I think. PMS anyone?

But nothing an ice cream cupcake from Cold Stone couldn't fix.

So I sit here..feet up on my desk staring out the window at the people across the street. They've had this happy birthday sign up for three weeks now. Wonder why..?

Then..at the corner is the hair salon/spa on the fifth floor. Someone's getting a frizzy blow out. Ahahahah.

And there's someone standing at my office door waiting..

Patiently waiting for me to turn around..or for me to acknowledge them in some way.

Nah.

Not gonna happen today.

I don't feel like it..

Lots of stuff swirling in my head now..

And the person at the door..whomever they are..isn't one of them.

I'll just keep facing the window and blog until they go away.

Any minute now.......


XOXO,
B

I Declare NO MORE SL WORK!

Well, I'm really fucking tired. And this is such an un-me like post, you may want to skip it.

All of this time in SL and I've dabbled.

Played in clubs, in stores, in parties..in lots of things.

I've had my time in everything and found that..nothing really suits me well.

And I encourage everyone to find their own way..and their own niche.

And people do.

But I've got to say..

I miss my friends. I miss everyone now.

I miss having fun. I miss wandering..and doing stupid things.

I'm sick as fucking hell of clubs..of SL work..of everything. It's so much..that I despise all SL clubs. I show up to support my friends and the people that I love..but I really..truly..hate clubs.

And yes. I get that the lindens help the working in SL, and a lot of people do it for their LOVE of what they do.

But I'm just saying..

I'm tired of everyone being so busy and caught up in their own SL careers to remember what two years ago was like.

I got this great five person pose in the bunny hunt..

But I can't find five people that aren't working to join me.



So yeah, I feel mopey and bummed.

And it's nobody's problem but mine - and I am the one that said I was drifting away in my own way..

But that's it.

Just how I feel.

And I'm not ungrateful for the friends that find time to fit me into their busy schedule. I really appreciate it, and I love just being able to spend time with them.

But..whatever.



B

My Days....and Nights.....

So..I was doing my usual thing at the Savoy..piano dancing and having fun on a late Saturday night. Very late...



When I decided to visit Bev. BUT! On the drive over, my car stalled. I tried to push it..but I couldn't move it.



So I called Bev on my cell, and she drove over to come and get me. What a friend!



So we waited for AAA to come and tow my car, and posed for a few great snapshots. Oddly enough, we've been asked to be the new AAA models. :)



So the next day, I woke up and found out dinosaurs were alive and well in my backyard! I had a great conversation with this guy. I named him Walter.



Then I tried to talk to this guy - I named him Marty. But Marty..was not as nice as Walter.



For obvious reasons..he and I won't ever speak again.



So, I ran away from him and I met up with Nessie. She gave me a ride in the water and we had a long talk. She's really misunderstood..not a monster at all.



So I decided to sky dive my way home. Felt like old times, I think.



It was a really busy time. :) But lots of fun!

Hope you had a great day too!


XOXO,
B

Drifting..

So lately, something weird has been happenings..

I've been drifting back to RL more and more.

I once sat through listening to a friend go ON and ON about how great it was to go back to RL and leave SL behind, etc. Lord, I wanted to slap him.

I don't feel that way about SL at all.

But in a way, I do kind of feel like maybe..

Whatever was keeping me in SL..whatever was making me log on and STAY on for hours and hours on end..has run it's course.

Do NOT mistake this for me saying I don't care about the friends I've made in SL.

I do.

But I also realized..that my SL time was eating up my RL time. It was eating up the time and energy and EMOTION I should have been spending on my better half (and lately, that's what he really has been)..my nieces and my nephews..my siblings..my parents..my friends, etc.

I got so caught up being Blissie..that I lost the real me somewhere.

And while a part of me feels guilty for having somewhat vanished from my old role in SL, I think a bigger part of me knows that I am where I belong. And not being so caught up in SL has allowed me to chill out a lot.

Seriously!

I was getting wound up over things in SL..and that's just nutty when you think about it.

So now, there's no wound up me..no scheduled me..no caught up me.

Just me. :) Just me wandering around my RL, getting re-acquainted and wandering around my SL playing dress up like I did so many years ago. Nothing serious and nothing heavy.

RL is heavy enough, why add to it?

So while I'm never going to leave SL completely (I can admit that I'm addicted to SL), my time is shorter now. I'm okay with that. I really only use my time now to catch up with the friends I've missed and shop. I do what I do best.

I miss not being at every event..not being able to support all of my friends, but I think..they understand. And I'm always around if anyone needs me - I answer IMs even from e-mail, so I'm never completely MIA.

I always said, if I could leave SL with one real friend, it would have all been worth it - and I think I have more than one outside of SL that have drifted into my RL. So I consider me pretty blessed.

All of this drifting, I tell ya..

:) Thank you for sticking with my ramblings.




XOXO,
B

Some random moments..

Here are some random pics I've taken lately. :) Enjoy.





















XOXO,
B

My Guilty Pleasure..

Hey, we all have them.

:) So here's mine...



Yes, I am a Keeping Up with the Kardashians fan.

Yes, I did lay in bed (though I was sick) on Sunday and watch the 8 hour marathon - though moving wasn't an option at ALL. LOL!

It was the best way to pass the day without having to sit up, I think.

:) I think everyone should check it out for some mindless fun - and at the very least, great fashion.

Also, newly discovered..

Think your day sucks?

Instant Cheer-Up:

http://www.fmylife.com/

The stories are so insane, you can't help but laugh.

Enjoy!


XOXO,
B